30/9/12

On the whole, today has been alright.  'Cept now I'm starting to get tired and the elbow is getting sore I'm getting grumpier again.

I kept the sling on while I was out, as it seemed like a long time to leave my poor arm hanging there, but have made an effort whilst at home.  It doesn't want to move very far and the weight of a fork (as in knife and...) is too much. Just a tad frustrating...

Changed the dressing this morning too. Steri-strip things in the way but at least I now have an idea what the scar might look like.  Can't wait to be de-stitched a week tomorrow (assuming I can get an appointment...). 

I realise that this is at a rather odd angle!

I'm allowed to be a little bit grumbly when my arm looks like that, right?

Sorry, I'm sure I'll stop feeling sorry for myself soon, just a bit "mojoless" I guess. Was going to turn to studying (not that I've got much to study) in an attempt to get myself going again but that probably requires writing to be successful so promptly gave up on the idea.

Not sure even ice cream will get me out of this one.  Sure I'll be fine in the morning though...

I've said sure too many times.  I'll stop talking now.

29/9/12

Went for a walk down to the shop this morning - I needed to get out of the house!

Normal service has now resumed though.  I'm sitting around, doing very little, occasionally making "ouch" related noises.  

Tomorrow scares me, supposed to be minimal movement for 10 days but was told I could start getting my arm out of the sling after 3 days.  Whilst I like progress I'm more than a little bit worried about doing too much and stopping the healing, or doing more damage. I really don't want to undo the good that has hopefully been done!

I'm also having a bit of a mini-meltdown.  I can't decide if my new worries are genuine or really just a  combination of self-doubt and a fear of rejection.  Current opinion is that either way I don't need to act now, and this isn't the time anyway - I should focus on mending.  This logic is not stopping me from fretting though!

I should probably try and embark on some sort of positive mental attitude crusade, and focus on positive stuff (which I'm sure there's plenty about if I start looking for it!) to get myself going again.  I shall begin with the Brave soundtrack, 'cos I like that at the moment!

This one-handed typing thing is getting speedier.  Just as well, typing counts as repetitive so there's a minimum of a 6 week ban!

Until tomorrow folks.

28/9/12

I was going to whinge, but couldn't bring myself to do it, with the usual "I shouldn't complain, lots of people have got things worse, too many people have things a lot worse" argument springing to mind.  But whilst this makes me feel guilty for wanting to have a bit of a grumble it doesn't really stop the desire the do it!

I'm going to be unbearable in a few days aren't I? Already fed up of not being able to do anything, and trying to do things that really shouldn't be difficult resulting in ouchiness.

At least I've only got 1 hand to type with so I can't go on too much!

Picture opportunities are few and far between.  So here's...erm...the sky!

27/9/12

I get the feeling the coming days (and weeks) are going to be testing.  I don't seem to have the required patience!  Hopefully this will be the end of it though!

De-bandaged, as requested, this afternoon so don't have much left to show for it now!

Would quite like to know what it looks like under there...